relocated!! to zepiphanyr.blogspot.com
three weeks and counting! belllo and geri came over today, and stuying was ActUAlLy fun (: anyway, here's a nice disney song, dont you wanna live under the sea too??
The seaweed is always greener
In somebody else's lake
You dream about going up there
But that is a big mistake
Just look at the world around you
Right here on the ocean floor
Such wonderful things surround you
What more is you looking for?
Under the sea
Under the sea
Darling it's better
Down where it's wetter
Take it from me
Up on the shore they work all day
Out in the sun they slave away
While we devoting
Full time to floating
Under the sea
Down here all the fish is happy
As off through the waves they roll
The fish on the land ain't happy
They sad 'cause they in their bowl
But fish in the bowl is lucky
They in for a worser fate
One day when the boss get hungry
Guess who's gon' be on the plate
Under the sea
Under the sea
Nobody beat us
Fry us and eat us
In fricassee
We what the land folks loves to cook
Under the sea we off the hook
We got no troubles
Life is the bubbles
Under the sea
Under the sea
Since life is sweet here
We got the beat here
Naturally
am strangely happy today, and my ice cream count has gone up to three pints in the past week. three pints, not in the freezer but in my stomach. yyAy (:
so many things hav happened since i last wrote something here! yet when i try to remember, it seems like every day of the last ten weeks of prelims + mugging was a clone of the one before it. mug mug mug.most days spent til 9 with jing+oaf+belle+feli+gracetan (we're going iceskating on weds(:(: yayy! ) but of course there were moments of fun, going cycling around school, basketball, major suanning sessions (jing+pau+belle in the canteen!), singing at the tennis courts at night.. it wasn't so bad afterall with everyone suffering together (: thank God for friends, really. class party+stayover was really crazy. when i woke at 4am due to blanket-extraction, everyone was still awake downstairs and ahchan was muttering russel peters in half-sleep mode.. the next morn nat+puiman+anni and i were like squashing in my bed just talking sO much craap and bouncing and being high..not having to touch stupid notes and books is such a relief(: ohh then it was off to sentosa with yilin, vicky, president, tee, lingmin, lilian, shawn, clement, quijun, geri, dex, etcetc, like 25 others for kayaking, beach touch rugby + frisbee! playing on the beach is super tiring!! feet kept getting stuck! but its good cos if you slide it isnt that painful.didnt get burnt at all. how disappointing:/ was reallllllllly fun tho. but it just showed how unfit i was when the next morning i couldn't even walk properly so when geri yilin n i were out on an eating spree, i was totally dy-ing!~! haha then it was on to MORE food, chocolate buffet with geri n belle! underperformed lor, totally lost stamina after three servings. had to go walk singapore river with belle..before coming back to eat some more. totally wanted to dip my hand in the chocolate fountain. (: or jump in, like augustus gloop. too bad it was small,cant even fit half of me. haha. but i made up for it today by eating loads of belgian chocolate ice creamm (: ahh and who can forget aunty siva's treat for our sunday school class. we had like, three seafood platters!!! oh no im like documenting the life of a pig. but i dont care. i can expand all i want now (: anywayy, its two days left to the beginning of another bout of torture. on thurs, we'll be welcomed by our papers again :/ BLEH. must enjoy this while i can. aim : finish harry potter by tonight! (don't like it much tho, its getting so DARK)
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
this is by casting crowns (: do listen to it, if you get the chance.
Got this from streams in a desert.. meaningful! this is for everyone who's overwhelmed by a sense of inadequecy during this period. esp the j2s.
"I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances" Phil 4:11
Paul, while being denied every comfort, wrote the above words from a dark prison cell. A story is told of a king who went to his garden one morning, only to find everything withered and dying. He asked the oak tree that stood near the gate what the trouble was. The oak said it was tired of life and determined to die because it was not tall and beautiful like the pine tree. The pine was troubled because it could not bear grapes like the grapevine. The grape vine was determined to throw its life away because it could not stand tall and produce fruit as large as peaches. The geranium was fretting because it was not fragrant like the lilac.
and so it went throughout the garden. Yet coming to the violet, the king found its face bright and happy as ever and said "well, i'm glad to find one brave little flower in the midst of this discouragement. You don't seem to be the least bit disheartened." The violet responded : "No, im not. I know i'm small, yet i thought if you wanted an oak or pine or peach tree or even a lilac, you would have planted one. Since I knew you wanted a violet, im determined to be the best one a can be." whoever we are, wherever we are placed, we can be more than conquerors thru him who loves us (:
friday may20. was feeling all worked up and angry inside today.. you know, i've never met such a detestable guy in my life. but i guess forgiveness and putting it out of my mind are the keys to happiness again (: and yes, prayer works wonders (:
the sianness is setting in once again.. garrgh. at least i have weilin to cheer me up now!! yay this post is specially for you weilin(: n for that matter the whole of 403 cos i miss you guys to bits! thank u luohan for e contact list(: if only everything was like what it was back in our nice d22 classroom.. with sher sitting next to me and my shelf.. anna and chan on e same row, giraaaaffe behind with audrey qinghui.. talking to bra and whui across e class cos e teachers HAD to split us up (we made too much noise together).. haha.. how me and whui alwayS made noise about how we looked too naughty and always got blamed for the mischief. ohhhyaaaa!! happy birthday to me giraaaaaffe jasminehohuiying (: piggy loves u lots.. ideal height!! WEIIILIIN my happy medicine (: yingmei wong with her highclass humour, shuching my pest/pesticide, cherie and shihui.. fellow front row warriors for one term, sher, letting me stealllll her blanco, peeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwhhyy and clay, jiaxin and her perpetual caring for others, the hilarious luohan, kanndddyy makerena and bird, my dear gay addy, karenang and raaah (husband and wife),mel labpartner burning up litmus and exploding wires,louse the AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRR, and so many more people who really touched my life. i miss those days. especially rugby.yingmei wong and rah and luohan the powerfuls!! all in all, it was a once in a lifetime experience. being with such wonderful people for 2 years(: just heard 'wouldnt it be nice' and remembered what belle, dicky, geri, jing, hannah planned for my birthday this year. i think im a really really blessed person for such people in my life (: let me write this down so that i can remember. hmm.. wait.. first thing in the morning it was rah, chan, jo and johnny!! who put many many many balloons in the dark room.. got blindfolded and led to the dark room.. which was obviously very dark so they gave me a torch to turn on.. and i saw all the balloons and a a nice cake and my even nicer presents (haa very apt ones indeed).. and happy birthday ren on the walls! yay it was jenni's first time baking.. hmm. then had to burst the balloons to get my letters from each of them.. was causing lots of exploooosions(: thank u guys agaiin.. hmm then it was on to my og !! (: estelar .. got a cake and card from them.. quite sweet.. at assembly, chan rah, jo and johnny had tied up all the balloons so i had to carry the whole bunch around.. and some of them burst during majulahsingapura.. tsktsk. hmm during school i got lotsa nice an sweet notes and presents from 403,3h, pb, swimming people.. all these friendships will definitely be treasured forever and ever. in the afternoon after school was the major surprise.. rah handed me a clue after pe (follow the footprints) and i got lead to the coucnil rm where jialun had the next clue and a present for me..think next stop was the staff room(where the ffats are stored) .. ms low and chocolate!! (:, then it was the beauty and beast stair case where marc gave me the next clue (jing in class) nd a nice balloon.. finally i found jing and hannah (council OAFFF) in a45 (: where hannah entertained us with singing and lots of silly jokes.. and jing gave me even more presents!.. the next clue.. led us to the canteen (hannaah the oaaff tried to trick me :D) where the final surprise came.. thank u dicky, belle, geri.. it was "love actually" style.. with "wouldnt it be nice" in the background.. really loudly.. had to read out a long poem which 3 of them came up with, and which they flashed on a4 sized cards.. two lines per card so it was rather long.. at least 30 cards i think.the poem was an extremely touching one as well.. encapsulated all which we had gone thru together since sec1..since nacli, pb, house, class etc it was an amazing feeling.almost cried i think.. out of happiness that is. hahahaa. that's extremely rare for me.. then all of the people who mean lots and lots and lots to me gathered round and sang happy birthday n i got my fav choc banana cake (: yay. wel after that was relli fantastic too.. went out for dinner (: (thats all i shall say aboutthat hahaa) and got home where my family had more cake for me.. . hehheh. yay now im so happy thinking bout it. thank you God!! back to reality.. have not done a piece of work this weekend. heh. goodnite!
yay im currently on my 7 day mc but think i'll go back to school tmr.. wont be too bad. feels like i need to catch up with everything! tho there's not much (i hope :D) went to ghim moh to try and get charkway yesterday (yes despite not being to eat properly) but i got chicken rice instead. ok but that's besides the point. ah the point is that it felt really nostalgic! could suddenly remember running with jo on our half hour break to eat charkway and, yes those og days when minzheng or vicky or pra would buy sugarcane for everyone then we'd run to some void deck and sit there talking until relli relli late. eating at ghim moh before late night meetings in school , and how our class used to go for playground lunches and play silly games. yes we were happy then. happy and carefree. the degeneration started after common test one! the system did get to us. seeing j1s so happy now makes me feel sad for them that one day the pressure and grades and tests will jus cause them to become like us. ahh but maybe thats just me, being a pessimist. im happy now too! (i guess) . must be grateful for what i have (: (:
went for surgery to remove wisdom teeth today.. 4 at one go!! haha. now i cant talk properly nor eat properly~ BUT i can eat ice cream and that;s why i have 2 pints of ben and jerrys(: (: (: to last me 2 days. not a bad deal.. but my face is swellinG. i have a very happy brother today who just bounced into the room with a smile i havent seen for quite some time. hahahaa. yeaa congrats little boy. or should i say "little"(: another U-17 record to your name!
a random update (: just feel like it. tho its a bad time and all, cts starting in a day's time. whaAaatever to cts! spoiled the hol ): haa anyway! i went down to watch NAG twice this year. it's a really weird feeling not taking part in the competition. you just feel very..detached. but i still kinda remember the feeling of racing in it. the amount of pressure i put on myself to qualify for this meet and tht meet in this country and that country and the nauseating feeling i always felt when i first stepped into toapayoh before each race. esp 200 fly . used to dread it 2 weeks before i actually swam it :D i actually felt nervous for the swimmers.. esp my bro. garghhh watched his 200 free and 100free and my heart was beating sO fast so fast so fast before he got onto the blocks and thru the whole race! me and jiaolian were probably going crazy out of nervousness. kept complaining and talking rubbish to each other. anyway, if ure reading this bryan, really good job for NAG (: esp the 200. the 100 may not have seemed as ideal but im real sure u can do sub 53 very soon. rmb to thank God in all things, good or bad (: yay. rather happy not being in it anymore tho! nowadays school is just a bunch down down and further downs.. the only thing you ever look forward to is recess! but yeah. it'll be over fast. just lke the lst 3 months have flown by. wanna make good use of my life from after j2 onwards and not just be a mugger.. like i have degenerated into over th hols. cant wait to do that next yr. but first,. have to decide what to do.. so soon we'll have to decide. everytime we talk about it in school.. all of us just go 'DONT KNOW!!" which we really dont. so me rah chan jo and johnny have decided to set up a clinic. i think chan will be the neurologist and jo the paediatrician and rah the gynaecologist an i some psychiatrist and johnny.. since we couldnt think of anymore.. will be the posteriologist. gargh. you know, that's actually if we get into medicine. IF. and would i want to do medicine? or would i want to try for a scholarship overseas? what does it matter anyway?? a chasing of the wind. me and jo always quote that. from ecclesiastes. its nearing easter and the thought of getting baptized always comes to my head around now. but then i think im not good enough. am perpetually thinking that way. which i really dont think i am. trying to get all the sin out of my life an always fail. trying to pt God before everything else and always fail. well. keep on trying. i will.
hello. time to revive a dead blog. just got back from laos yesterday, had a great great time. my small group AND big group (with the detestable name) was simply fantastic. couldnt asked for more. room mates geri and jing.. the dirt fighters who relented to decomposing matter in the toilet (eventually).. the long long long late night talks and bridge games. (AND slap jack and shithead).. next door neighbours jo, channie and rahrah.. who woke us up every morning and went back to sleep).. the many knocking codes.. smal group members.. jonfang, gabby, jasmine, honourary members minsheng and szetoh khaihoe. squeezing into a tiny tuktuk and playing silly games such as power up and pingpiangahhhhhhh.. laughing at jonfang's uncontrollable screams and gabriel's appetite.. waving to e motorcyclists and irritating them from e back of e tuktuk.. playing cards with timmo, jaya, john "technically speaking - nullifying" lee.. preparing materials late into the night.. watching the BOBOCHACHA and laughing till we got stomach aches, hahaha. really fun/ really. had such a great time. and i havent got to the most meaningful part. teaching the kids!! i miss A and B! (2 sisters) . seriously. those were their names. anywayy we taught english.. head and shoulders knees and toes knees and toes!!! what is the time mr wolf? DINNER TIME!! and the kids would jus start running like mad.. even if it wasnt dinner time they would start runinig and kicking up dust.. we would all get exasperated yet tickled at the same time!! haha. science toys were fun! did telephone and cup boat.. they were so excited over the simplest things. esp the telephone. it was as if they saw some space ship landing! the kids loved taking pics.. its like.. when uyou take a cam out they all dash to the scene adn start posing! and the flipping toy.. they all thought it was magic! we also planted gardens (arghh diggign and hoeing and raking and planting..hard work!) and painted one school .. sykhaitong school.. the walls looked perfeCT after that.. thanks to tohqi's and yuanyin's art.. the rest of us jus painted) . realized that the lao really dont have much materially.. but they seem so content and happy.. jus living in a world of their own. there's so much to learn from them. vangvieng was beautiful too.. we walked to the riverside, the villages, thru the farms.. it was jus so different. an experience i will never forget. cooking was good fun too. started with marketing, washing the breakfast dishes, cooking lunch, dinner and waking up ultra early to prepare breakfast (pancakes with chocolate and banana sauce!) completely hand made. yummy. i think our cooking day was a success. cheers to vicky, mich, qisheng, prissy and JO!!! after that mr khoo treated us to prata. near our lodge. met so many cute little kids. i wan to go see them again. A, B, jitjalen, kamui, ponhala!! ponhala! haha i shall go back to laos one day. the trip also allowed me thinking time. thinking about all sorts of things. especially about my spiritual life. and God really clearly showed me what was wrong. why i never seem to hear what He wants to say to me, to experience His love. but no matter how far ive strayed, i know He will welcome me and take me back. and when i was talking to a friend about it on the way back, 2 verses relli jumped out at me. " You will find me when you seek me with all Your heart "(jeremiah) and " I will never leave you nor forsake you".(isaiah). i shall go thru a massive priority shift and God will take precedence over everything in my life. at least i will try as hard as i can! pray for me (:
so you're standing on the ledge
it looks like you might fall
its so far down
or maybe you were thinkin about jumping
now you could have it all
if you learned a little patience
for though I cannot fly
I'm not content to crawl
so give me a little credit
have in me a little faith
I wanna be with you forever
if tomorrow's not too late
but its always too late when you got nothing
so you say
you should never let the sun set on tomorrow
before the sun rises today
If I am
another waste of everything you dreamed of
I will let you down
if I am
only here to watch you as you suffer
I will let you down
So you're walking on the edge
and you wait your turn to fall
but you're so far gone
that you don't see the hands upheld to catch you
and you could find the fault
in the heart that you've been handed
for though you cannot fly
you're not content to crawl
and its always too late when you got nothing
so you say
but we should never let the sun set on tomorrow
before the sun rises
If I am
another waste of everything you hoped for
I will let you down
if I am
only here to watch you as you suffer
I will let you down
So you're standin on the ledge
it looks like you might fall
If I am
another waste of everything you dreamed of
I will let you down
if I am
only here to watch you as you suffer
I will let you down
The answers we find
are never what we had in mind
so we make it up as we go along
you don't talk of dreams
when i won't mention tomorrow
and we won't make those promises we can't keep
I will never leave you
I will not let you down
I will never leave you
I will not let you down
if i am - nine days
Monday July 19
yay! nationals are over. happy like i havent been in a long while (: so happy im crazy. as lgc would say, pscyhosomatic ilness blahblah! ha. but seriously, it was ok. dont know what to think of it, two golds one silver, but whatever it is, thank you, God! im contented and happy. yes.now that i am throwing swimming away for the time being, zoom in to e rest of my life. open house interviews are fuN (: n everybody is turning mugger nowadays, it's scary.. but actually it's entertaining. chionging to e library. hahahaha.. n i are gonna learn tennis for pe now! not like e sec4 kinda tennis i hope (hit e ball over e fence onto the road.. then ask mr chee to pick up hehheh) hopefully i will get better at it argahrghrgh. anyway.. im hungry. it's 1030 and im going to eat instant noodles. lalalalalaaaa.
friday july 9
tho this, i conclude, is going to be one of my most unlucky nationals, i shall be happy and blog happy things.. eg, about today. when i laughed so hard at 'training' till my throat is sore up till now. at zhixiu trying to wear bern's swimming costume, but go stuck at the waist (wahahaha), about jed's n ashley's bellyflopping and the rests' sky diving plunging. plus mr fatty ong stuffing tennis balls here and there.. with nigel's help (urghghghghgh). ac is darn good at utilizing people. haha.. they sent 2 girls to keep e 9 heavY competition lane breakers (from the ac pri meet).. so being very gallant, all of us went to help them. haha it turned into a survivor challenge. which our team won immunity in -despite the extremely sagging roll of lane rope.jed, nigel, ally, zoe, n i triumphed over zhixiu, joel zach nick bryan simon and bernie. wahahaha. then after that, most embarrassingly i wil admit, that i and zoe jus sat at the poolside commenting on how buff and toned (same thing) all the guys looked n how all of them were getting hotter. (arghgh cant believe we actually did that)but hahaa .. we are entitled to bimbotic conversation. anyway common tests were rather bad, jus hoping to get above e 50th percentile. hohoho. okok. ishall get off and go to sleep.
sunday june 27
BOOOO! the holidays have been wasted, totally. what have i been doing? hmm. nothinG. maybe training sometimes, going for meetings, trying to mug e last week. blah. nothing significant i guess.. there was a fair share of depression and fair share of humour. eg, friday afternoon training. (ended at 7, i went at 6! haha) but anyway was in a lane with ally, zach, nic and nigel.
me:ally, how many times today?
ally:twice already!!
zach:dont worry, it's not yellow one..
me:!! how in the world would you know?!/
nicholas: cos we were watching!!!
oh no.. how gross. if you dont understand, it's better if you dont.another incident, with guest appearance by lisa chong..
*waves* hi bong!
ok anyway we tricked her that christel is engaged and gonna get married.
lisa: to who?
me: bradley..from her school in us.
lisa(to christel) : so youre gonna be christel bouvron lee is it??
christel : lee?!?!
me: it's bradley not brad LEE!
(fact : she is nOt getting married noNOnO)
other interesting stuff.. was like when i tried to add shawn to my msn contact list.. i ended up adding another shawn.. who's obsessed with porn.. eeeks. and i was SO shocked at first cos i thot it was really shawn until i started talking about open house. ohno..
hmms.. cts starting tomorrow, so i better stop being full time online now and go mug some chem (bo0 ): )
ohya before i forget! happy bday little boy!!! tho it's been spoiled by the cts, but cheer up! ok, i shall GO NOW! resist temptation! bye!~
yes, anger is a good fuel. but it's not good to keep it inside too long. it hurts most when someone youve trusted al the while does something like that. but i guess it's human nature. so that's why i had to write my events down for you. i know now. on the bright side, i've learned a lesson. forget it
johnny jo shona sarah : 4 guys and a girl. i miss you all!
glen and weixiang: haha thanks for the bicycle mail thingie. was really sweet. (:
and i dont want to write anymore tonight. goodnite.
Wednesday June2
back from maldives (: was great.. perfect place to relax. n the best part is there was no tv so i didnt have to pull my bro away from it to go starfish-finding (: plus we could swim with the rays n the sharks! and all the funny looking fishes.. ah i want to own an island there! one thing we missed out on was fishing for marlins thoughh. haha. nevermind there's always next time.
anywayy upon coming back i was hit by reality.. nationals are in a month's time! hm. so as of yesterday, i've gone training twice and yes, it has absolutely killed me. arghghg trying to drag my arms out of the water for fly is sO tiring.. but on the bright side, i sneaked into acjc pool and trained with r&w.. which made things better. could ride the north-atlantic drift (in other words, the waves) or beck and whitneyy. whitney and taoli are so so funny together.cos theyre both tryin to learn each others' languages. whitney taught taoli that "genius" was "ben4dan4" n the whole training taoli was telling us that whitney was a genius..n taoli made her ask mark "ni yao zuo wo de nan peng you ma" in return. n at the end taoli would just jump on her and give her a hug. hehheh. anywayy. besides all that meiyen is back and so as bern observed, 4/7 of our old gang was reunited. meiyen bern becky and me.unice zoe and lisa were missing in action. haha. improvement, considering only 1/7 of us were at trraining for around 5 months (bern) haha. wellwell. i have resolved to train at least 6 or 7 times a week for the last 3 weeks. we'll see how far i can go with that.
besides swimming, i jus found out that i am open house i/c with shawwwn.. it's one week after promos.. am i scared? a little. we hAve to make it good! and we will.ok, at least we'll try. bring it on (:
hmm council. it's been okay i guess, nothing much to talk about, just okay.whatever it is council people are saying about me bbeing detached lately, it's really not cos of you guys. and it would be nice if people did stop speculating.
overall i am a happy person! hols have never been more well received than this year. i shall eat and eat and sleep and sleep. and attempt to study. and go for meetings. and go out. og, class, swimmers, 403, etc.. yes. finalllllyyy (:
backbeat the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out. im sure youve heard it all before but you never really had a doubt. i dont believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now..and all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how..
cos maybe, you're gonna be the one who saves me. and afterall, you're my wonderwall.
wonderwall - oasis
Wednesday May 26
i write today in response to yaowen's comment that i have a dead blog. which is true.(yes you better be happy now that im updating yah? haha). hmm. but i dont think he will be, seeing that the main reason im writing this is because i have thoughts to aiR. DISCLAIMER. i do understand that not all those from the school i wil be talking about are of that nature, and i do not mean offense to anybody from that school. i merely need to vent my disapproval regarding what i have observed over the last two days, at the tennis and rugby finals. speaking about that, we wOn rugby and girls tennis. (: which was really a job well done. and i have reaffirmed that i am truly proud to be rafflesian, cliched as it may sound, not only because we win, but also because we play with dignity, sportsmanship and spirit. dignity. it never occured to me how much we had of it, not until i saw people from the other school behaving with an extreme lack of it. firstly, while we were cheering (and they paled terribly to us in that aspect), they mocked our cheers, screaming "(their school's initials)" every single time we cheered "raffles", attempting to drown us out.(needless to say they failed desperately). well, that can easily be forgiven, we understand the plight that they really dont have many original cheers which they can use and hence have to leach off us. however what really irked us was when they started shouting vulgarities. for example, when we cheered "raffles, zui hao" they replaced the second phrase with "l**j***". exactly how brazen and crass they could get, i really do not want to expound on. but the point is made. what made me lose total respect, however, was when i told one of them that it wasn't really nice to do that, and he said "well, our head councillor started it". enough said. is it just their culture, or the utter lack of it?
sportsmanship and spirit. we were down for rugby finals today after the first half. yet you could see how hard they fought back, and they totally deserved to win. when our opponents were given a free kick, we did not shout, distract and give thumbs down signals at them, all of which were done to our players. well eventually this paid off and both our penalty kicks by pravin and raihan scored us 6 points, leaving the opposing team trailing with half of our score.however, there wAs a good fight, and their players deserve all respect as well. as for the raffles crowd,it was just amazing standing amongst them.
enough said for the night. it's been a lOng week, match support everydAy.. can't wait to go to maldives (:
Friday MaY 7
time has passed sO quickly, or should i say fastly, since i actually sat down to think about what in the world i'm doinG. really, what am i doing? what are we all doing? what's the point of all this.. information overload, being totally exhausted everyday, pressure to do well? and i jus read ken's blog. yeaa it's true. we've drifted. the class has drifted alOt.guess it;s cos we dont even have the time to talk.. so much so that we've kinda forgotteN the art of doing so. we jus sit and listen all day.. enclosed. stifled. jus like that passage we read at gp. about coketown. on the bright side, there's all the great people around.. who actually keep you going. jo. sho. sarahh. jonny. anni. lynn. suwee. ken. glen. ruik. nat. ryang. gracce .(3H). other acquaintances/old friends whose nice-ness make your day.smriti. shaf. thea, judith, hakeem. iylia. daryl.hari. amrik. pravin. ahfoo. tiong. vanessa. etcetc.jus wish i had more time to spend.oh and very importantly.. ling, belle,(yeaaahh happy birthdayy darlings! (: ), geri.. those you know will always be there. today was quite terrible day.. woke up at 5 plus for training. then had school till 510 (inclusive of pe), played carrom with ivan and brandon then went trainin again. and now im home.. the guilty feeling of not going for enough trainings keeps coming to me n that's why i keep trying to compensate for what i miss thru the week. eg on wed when we went for rugby match support and thur etc..(they play real well). nationals are in a scary 2 months time! 200 i.m is like madness i dont think i can even get my head out of the water! hahA!fly, well. hopefully will be fine. anyway im starting to feel happier listening to the noisy songs tiong burnt for me. love is only a feeling, drifting away nice song! by darkness, go listen.. currently in a near-comatose state.. goodnight then..
hmm. it's been awhiLe. haha..what's been on these few weeks? council camp/training/(trying to mug)/failing spa desperately - negative time for bio pract while cutting 8*5*10 potato strips(arghrggrh)/ cant remember.. brain dead already.. you know when you have lots of things to say but when the time comes to say it.. you just cant? haha. that's what always happens to me.. going for humanes prac crit lec tmr.. fuN. n moe scholarship interview.. woah this is a today-i-went-shopping blog. sorry to all the deep people out there. i need to be brainless at some points of the day. (:
happy birthday GERIIIIII
sunday April 11
good morning everyOne. it's been a long while since i bothered to sit down and type.. anywayy congrats to joel.andrew. esther on your baptism today (: the testimonies were really meaningful. the world behind me, the cross before me. no turning back, no turning back oh yaahh and blessed easter to everyone (:
Saturday March 27
have a strange sinking feeling.. been bugging me the whole day. hm.. coupled with my dyING legs thanks to the 19 rounds we ran at pe yesterday.. agrhagrhagh not in a very good mood.. currently printing keyboard tabs.. in an attempt to be a better keyboardist for tiong's band.. which is supercool and tiong can really druM! i need to learn! hahaa.so i dont have to sing anymore.. can't believe the rubbish i do. ohwell.
Wednesday March 24
O2.. ohwell.. it was okay i guess. sad that the activities didnt work out coz all of the j1s were so stoned and un-enthu.. really miss our first orientation! but anywayy at least krydaeus had time to spend together and talk crap and play really silly games.. plus the new people are really nice too.. zephyr(coool name), hakeeem etc.. and cong too.. who isnt exactly in our og but joined anyway.. 10 weeks of school till the hols..and .. im so sorry i keep bringing up the past.. i really really dont want to anymore.. it jus haunts me sometimes. everyone should just. start. anew.
there's no need for words right now
Saturday March 21
havent blogged for what seems like ages to me.. hahaa. the hols have been effectively wasted.. going out everyday, going down to the pool even if it's jus to watch events n swim in the overcrowded -20-ppl-per- lane pool/.. but it really gives me a really nice feeling when im there.. even when i'm banging thru tonnes of people who are trying to warm up.. and ducking to avoid being hit by those doing pacework.. strange feeling of nostalgia. anywayy today's events were great cos bryan swam so weLL.. haha cheersss for my brO. 53.84! that's like the fastest time of the whole meet..think i scream like mad for him. anywayy apsc came in top for medal tally. explainably.. due to zach bern bryan taoli etcetc.. went for ice cream with lionel n to buy sweets! hehh then off to meet geri belle sha fungshin xiufen.. supposed batch outing.. few people. but still.. brings back memories of banner painting balloon blowing n allthe stuf we did tgether in the pb(:
ahhh class outing yesterdayy. ice skating!! which was really fun. fell once. not bad considering it's my first time.. it's good class bonding activityyy.. got helped by everyone.. n it was sO nice.then jamming and pooling.. learnt how to play the beginning part of slide.. thanks to stitch and his electric guitar.
think the week's been a pretty rough one.. besides going out n having fun there was lots of thinking to do.. n getting lots of scoldings.. but that's over now. can't say i've totally made up my mind on alot of things though.. thanks to those who've been there to listen (: keeping me sane.
and ling is bak from obs! yaY!! missed her so much
okaayy. getting late.. amount of homework touched in 7 days : approaching zero, or negative infinity. haha (: cant wait to see all my classmates/og mates agaIN!
the whole world jus fades away..
the only thing i hear.. is the beating of your heart
Sunday March 14
hahah.. too many people have been saying im daoing them. ohwell, so here are my shout-outs.
yaowen okok sorry i havent been replying.. haha but i dO hope you get into rj dude. seeya around at n.a.g
bennnn haha congrats my dearest xiaodi.. on breaking the national rec.. imagine having a national rec at 16.. jiayou for 100/200!!
keshh had a real nice time catching up with you over our 100 fly escapade on sat (: can't wait to be school-mates / relayteampowerrr again!!
connggg haah im waiting for tuesday's events.. i'll get my treat soon eh? q'fy for category A!! behind yu all the wayy
geriiii can't wait to go out n play arcade.. hehh.. miss you loads girl.. here's to more peter-pan moments!! haha.
belle takkecare at hockeyy camp. we neeD to catch up. who ask yu go and take arts? hehheh seldom see yu nowadays.. call us after hockey! needa go out with sec2 klassmates vanessa n funggus !! (:
fionnaa my sonnnn hey dearrr how you doing!! contact your mom when you see this haha miss talking to youu.
vannesssa (wunjinggg) hellllllo.. thanks so much for yr encouragement.. quick organize sec1/2 class reunion.. relive our opera-singing dayys.God bless n i'll be praying for youuu
to B1! thanks for helping me put things in perspective.. maybe saturday wasn't as unfortunate as it seemed..
to jonny best friend have fun at campppp!!! n thx for being there yaah
marccheahhh brother/dancepartner! haha.. yes i know i missed by very little but ohwell remember me in vietnam ok? haah. i miss asean schools dayss!!
to my dear darling richardson juniors so sorry i culdnt make it down for swim carn to see you guys kick ass.. but i'll be down for sports day.. esp to 208-ers.. heard you guys are still as enthu as last year.. keep it up! (: i'll be bacK to see!! to house comm 04 keep up the great work. so proud of all of you!
to 403 '04.. the best class in the whOle world sometimes i jus wish we could turn back time and find ourselves in D221 being rubbishy and not sparing a thought for what others think.. n how we'd laugh till our stomachs hurt and yet, at the same time manage to do well at everything, and above all, be there for each other thru out the 2 years. love you guys so so so much./
WHUI darling brudder eh girl haven't talked to you seriously for quite long right? call me this hols! after hockey camp.. rock on brudder. (:
bernie and zoe and lisa haha rmb the times when we all used to train together.. and thrash everyone else? heh.. it's jus not the same anymore..tho i really wish it was.. with becks, un, mel, ahtan etc.. ohwell N.A.G is here so you guys go show them what youve got yeah? all the best.. wo yong yuan zi chi ni men!
to the rest of the apscians, zacho, joel, niggel, fAtty, nick, andrew, mari, tzenn, jueer, ale, alexis, joanne, etcetc gogogogogoGOgoGO..you got the pOWEr!
to ahjing, and mel and jacq my roomiesss go out on saturday night after mel's 200 fly/ or fri night! confirm asap yeahh!! to jacqq.. hope yu keeping up well in U.S.. call when you get back! loveyuguys loads
and finally to all the swimmers n xiaodis i havent mentioned yet. marc, punam, songzhen, sherman, shawn, ming,weibodoH blahblah.. sorry mental block.. all the best for the coming week.. seeya all around. take care, sleep more, eat more, drink water and im sure you guys wil do well (; haha.
okay that's it for shoutouts tonight.. sorry if i left anyone out. to be continued! (:
Saturday March 13
hmm. national age groups have started.. 100 fly today. which was a mixture of relief and disappointment.. relief that it's over..n i got top three. but disappointment. that i missed. sea age qualifying. for 100 fly. by 0.2. for the third time.. in the past 3 years. at least for the past 2 years i could depend on my 200 fly but now.. no 200 fly.. so. ohwell.. relli wanna go with cong, marccheah, kesh etcetc esp since they keep reminding me that i missed by so little. ): hmm.. but i should be touched that they were so concerned. haha. those 2 silly boys were like rushing to check the program booklet for the q'fying times.. n now im still getting pangs of regret that i didnt sprint the last 25m.. arghghgh.. by the end of the race usually my lungs feel like theyre gonna collapse but today it was like.. nothing. like i didnt push. haha my fault that i went to put such a bad seed time and ended up in heat one.. so no competition, no pressure, no last-minute urgency. hmm.. but it's over and it's probably God's plan that i dont go to vietnam this year.. ohwell.. i accept that.and thank Him that i could at least manage a best plus 3 after slacking quite a bit at training..
anywayy besides that.. competitions are always sth i kinda look forward to. get to catch up with all my old friends.. heh.. whom i havent seen since grandprix in november.. des, fai, yaowen, ming, KESH, lynette, kirsten, cong, marccheaaaah, shawn, (longest standing xiaodi - 5 years), ben, mandang, chengxun yadayadddaaa etc n everyone is so nice! miss the swimming people alot.. the times when we could all go overseas meets together. n spoke to kenneth too.. sO want to follow his advice but unfortunately my parents wont listen. he says if i really am uninterested in swimming, i should stop.. lay off for awhile and get back to it when i want.. meanwhile do something i enjoy in rj and sth which is meaningful.. cos he regretted not doing that.. n he also said that when i finally decide to get back to training i'd have an edge above others coz i liKE doing it and i'm not being forced into training (like i am now).. it's the process which counts and not the result. that makes a whole lot of sense to me.. and that's the reason why he's 26 yet he's so fast still.. ok. back to reality. i may want to do that but i stil am not allowed. forget it.
hmm chan and ling and tiong going obs.. to the three of yu : take good care!!! (: to jojojojojojojo: miss ya already girllll. call me ok?? and to all the 3H-ers : go ice skating on thurs!! (: and to kennn: when we gonna jam again? haha.
Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Monday March 8
mm.. eventful weekend.. swimteam com service on sat! which was like.. super fun except that i fell asleep on the gym floor half wayy.(too tired) hahaa. anywayys the kids were super duper cute.. azhar rashid etc.. got pravin to play soccer with them n they were so happy. haha the rest of the time was spent letting them climb all over me~ n making them say hello to all my friends.. haa. hmm then went for traininggggg at ac with jinjl. except that i think my tapering screwed up quite a bit under yanjiaolian.(yuck) n today jinjiaolian was getting super distressed about my state coz she doesnt knw what rubbish progs i've been doing lately.. ah, anyway. enough of that. yup sat night went to parents friends house which was SO boring i just HAD to escape and fortunately glen+ruik were at ken's place which was incidentally quite nearby. so i went there.. hahaaa and we were like so super cheap thrill, jamming with ken's 2 girlfriends (aka his guitars) haha.. the electric one is coollll. first time i ever played with the amp and distorter.. n we turned the volume relli loud. at first me n ken tried to play songs.. but after awhile too sian.. jus started banging chords. it's quite amazing the neighbours didn't go maD. haa.. then his mom got food for us n we jus sat in front of the tv eating.. yup.. arghgh have to go apply for the dsta thing. it's been raining all day. nice weather(: smells relli nice..
we'll forget the past - but maybe i'm not able
Friday March 5
now that i've calmed down from that not-so-fortunate-event at training a.k.a getting shouted at by the coach, i shall attempt to blog on this with as much objectivity as posssible. firstly, i'm a hcp. highly confused person. it's the first time in 5 years i've trained under a new coach, who's capabilities i have my doubts about. i am not afraid to say that, cos it's true. doing weird programs and sprinting bk/br one week before N.A.G is just a waste of time. wth.. time trial during tapering weeks?! plus, even with my pleading that jjl used to let me do my competition stroke, i was nOt allowed to swim fly. but i did anywaY and what did i get? shouted at.. like, whatever.. secondly, i have no idea what i am doing still swimming. training is a chore. through school, i dread it.. like "oh no, i hAve to go training later" .. i mean, cca is sth which you use to relax, sth youre supposed to like. so why am i still in swimming if i dislike it so much.. the main reason would be my parents. and i fully understand why they want me to continue with it. easy points. foundation is there, jus go pia abit and nationals shouldnt be a prob. but wait - why am i doing everything for points? someone asked me if i was a realist or idealist.. truth is i wanna be an idealist, (who cares about the points, just have fun and enjoy yourself doing something meaningful) but my mind tells me to be a realist. get your points as easily as possible, save time to study, get your As everywhere, get your scholarship or whatever you want.. we are all, unfortunately, trapped in the system which forces us all depend on our minds too much.. i find myself listening to my heart less and less, and fortunately, my sanity is preserved by a certain something which no one, or very few know about.. that i really thank God for..
anywayy i was jus reading two of my friends' blogs, (quite good friends i must say).. 2 friends who think they are losers.. and i thought about it very carefully. came to this conclusion. based on experience. you can achieve all you possibly can. studies. cca. piano. leadership. whatever, and still feel empty inside. it's not these things which make u a more complete person..and these things dont determine your worth, not one single bit. friendship definitely isn't based on these either. if it were, i'd have reason to worry. wellll and if i didnt have God, i'd be discontent, unsatisfied and a highly unhappy person despite everything. wish i could tell my friends about that, but sometimes i jus dont have the courage. which i regret. to jon/ken : youre wonderful ppl.. never doubt yourselves.
well besides all of these.. this week was ok, caught 2 movies.. mystic river on wed with jonny and ruiyang and big fish today with the class.. 12 of us.. which was quite nice (: natty/jo/zhen/lynn/me/anni/weixiang/glen/ruik/jonny/ruiyang/ken/.. had fun taking pics of ppl's eyes and playing guess the eye. haa. n during bio tutorial, chau has displaced mr nah and become our new bio teacher. go chau!!! haaha (:
fRiday February 27
i dont know how to feel. happy, for my results?
or sad..for my friends who sO did not deserve to screw up? i think cambridge is rubbish..this whole exam system is rubbish.. it makes ppl feel like their worth is based on that result slip. right now im feeling more sad..
ohwell the good part for me is.. i got one for hcl, so no need to ever see ha2ma3 lao shi hohohohoho.. n thank God i managed my eight other ones.. so yup, no need to appeal. hope our j1 class sticks together thoughh.. i8 will be too sad if it doesnt. yesterdaay we had class/og/class party to take our minds off results..
when i'm with yu i feel like i could die, and that would be alright
Friday Feb 20
the week's over.finally. chan transferred to our clAss.. new member to the endorphins/tauhui/suicide club~ must have been one of my happiest days. (: too tired to say anymore~ N.A.G in 3 weeks. that's. fAst..
I've looked at love from both sides now
from give and take and still somehow
it's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud to say I love you right out loud
mm.. joni mitchell. reminds me alot of love actually (:
helllllllo everyone. today was a fantastic day.. coz of fizziks pract when we made the boat n came up with our wonderful 7 little pigs storryyyy.. the rescue of prettY pig (aka. exothermic pig :P) was so funnn.. name shall not be revealed so as to protect his identity.. hahahaha. oh n i ended up freaking mrs tan out by talking crap with her about how to wiDEN the BASe and why the BASe must be BiGger. she said she was blushing~ hehhehheh.. oh and opera singing roCks.. ken brought the phantom of the opera scores and what did we do?? sAng it the whole day.. acappella and unfortunately quite jarring to the ears of passerbys at the windy corridor. reading back on my blog. i realized it's a today-i-went-shopping-blog. should start more self RefLectiOn soon.
okayyy lyrics time!! (: from the phantom of the opera sound track!!
all i ask of yu
No more talk
of darkness,
Forget these
wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.
Let me be
your freedom,
let daylight
dry -your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you
and to guide you . . .
Say you love me
every
waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .
Say you need me
with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask
of you . . .
Let me be
your shelter,
let me
be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are
far behind you . . .
All I want
is freedom,
a world with
no more night . . .
and you
always beside me
to hold me
and to hide me . . .
Friday February 13
hahaha happy day.. at last the week is over. it kinda sucked you know.. being sick n forcing myself to go training (as much as i dislike the coach). anywayy.. yeahh today.. totaldefence+friendship+vday games.. supposed to play but ended up watching the musiK concert which was great.. made me feel like playing my piano again.. after stopping for 2 yeaRs. picked up my grade8 piece.. the schumann one.. and tried to play it when i got home. to my horror. it sounded disgusting. ahwell. the bartok one still sounds better, after all it's jus banging and free style n i'm good at that kinda pieces.. wahahah.. i wonder what happened to my violin too.. the one i used to play up to p5. haha. i've relli lost touch with music.. not that good. hmphh.. ohwell hopefully i'll pick it up again one day. anywayy went for class lunch-dinner at around 5.. and all of us were starving coz the last time we ate was 10!! heh.. then og ppl joined too.. vicky, tiong, pravin.. n it was pretty cool coz everyone got along real well. ended up playing boggle.. ruiktiongpravin and me got mixed up with the rules.. at first we were so happy coz we got so many words..we thot we won. but when they told us we were wrong we ended up with like..4. that's one word for each person. geniuS. ahh og gift exchange.. thankyu hari fairy for the chocs (: gave amrik his present in this really scandalous bag.. wahahahah. ahh.. got flowers and chocolate overload today.. my beautiful big yellow sunflower died before the end of the day though.. so sad ): anywayys.. gave all the chocs away (besides a few which i culd not resist) it's bad being sick. sadly.. og outing is cancelled tmr.. hrmph. so im going for class movie marathon!! too bad half my xiaodis cant go.bleh.. but anywayy.. love actuallllllyyyyyyyyy.. the best vday movie of all.. haha.. JO is my valentine. yAy. and smriti too (coz i proposed today.. wahahaha) and a whole lot of others. arghgh.. would relli like to go out with belle and geri tml.. the original plan.. buy food n go to the beach.. pity it was so last min ): anyway.. it's okAy coz we're gonna be friends for life rights n that means we have al the time in the world until we're 80 or more to talk. haha. (heh.. oh no i never knew i was capable of being so cliche, but it's true.. n more than true :P) ahwell.. tml i get to see jinjiaolian. yAyyy.. hopefully no crazy test set.. getting late. zzzzzzz (:
everything's gonna be alright
Wednesday February 11
yay. thank you jonny for your solution to my conundrum.. tho i relli dont know if it will work ): thanks anyway. today was a good day, despite it being long.. coz we realized, at morning assembly, that it was a playground day !! (: haha n we had another stupid plan to da-bao ice cream from macs for everyone.. considering it was a really hot day and macs isnt exactly right next door..hahahaha it was quite a disaster.. leaving trails of ice cream all over the place. ok, at least they were 25cents. got a few good pictures.. 38 to be exact. caught on camera phone :p haha.. nice.. esp of the guys sliding down the slides head first. jo has beaaautiful hair right sarahh? haha.. 3 of us are trying to harmonize come what may.. every chinese free period we attempt.. yes. class choir haHa (: ohdear im still sick... super infector.. have a mixture of madcow, birdflu, sars, and schizophrenia.. (; that's what i tell everyone. still went training today. feeling rather crappy now tho.. goodnite
quote of the day
while discussing gp topic : the gender divide.. differences in male and female emotions.
Ms Ng : "guys.. think about NS.. what are you going to feel? what emotions are you expected to experience?? "
glen : tired
yandao : hot
Sunday February 8
ok.. so i totally screwed up.. im sorry. sorry mom sorry dad.. but thinking about it.. did i ever really want to go? am i even ready? okay.. enough about that.. im jus relli sorry to the ppl i disappointed.
besides that.. this week has continued to be interesting.. went back for richardson house pract on sat.. haha.. ohno.. i think i went crazy again, teaching the sec ones funny cheers incl the charsiew one which is unfortunately banned by rgs.. haha. and making them scream.. and wave their arms like communists. come to think of it.. i actually miss my (last years) sec ones! haha.. 108.. which is now 208.. 214 and 203! jus fnished my tutoriallsss yayyyyyy.. thank u tiong for your valuable help (: haha oh on fri we watched the gp video.. hahaa gross.. and after that ken couldn stop imitating the cheekopek doctor's voice.. ~ which was relli funny..ohh we went to the play ground again!but yeahh not everyone could go this time. ): nvm it was fun all the same.. sliding around and seeing the guys acting like kids ;) ok.. i admit we do too. then had to do this essay on what it would be like if youre a girl in a guy's body?! arghgh..
anywayy fell sick yesterdayy.. after marc's partyyy (which was nice (: ) .. chengxun came in his army uniform! haha.. we were like posing with his hat.. must wear it the riGHT way.. and after that..i dont know what insanity compelled me to go training ! i think it's cos i look forward to sat traiing with jiaolian? my times are like.. at least 10 secs faster than normal training.. not say very fast either.. but im happy enough.. wanted to sprint 50 back with lisa and tzen at the end.. haha but chickened out and did fly.. haha i am SO not ready for NAG. shoot me.
ohyeahh friday was great too.. me and geri were feeling so sian and sick of thinking after pe ended at 510.. i jus forgot about training and went off with her to watch peter pan! i do believe in fairies.. i do . i do ! (: haha.. at bishan.. then went to eat pasta fresca and talked and talked and talked until 1030.. hahaha.. it's great to have friends like that yu know.. yu know yu can trust them totally and count on them! too bad belle had hockeyyy.. we shall update her asap hehheh.. (:
... at the beginning with yOu
Wednesday February 4
arghhh migraine!! think im getting radiation poisoning. haHA..anyway me yilin and mellie escaped training early todAy.. after the mainset. have to do gp project now.. and type the letter to for the richardson website. haHAHA. i'm such a slackER. hope og bible study turns out well tmr.. krydaeussssss.. keep togetheR!! (: congrats to francis!!
did yu make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded?
February 2
played today away agaiN. (: morning training was ok except that the rain was insane.. felt like acupuncture or sth.. worst part was that there was NO lightning.. and that's the kind of rain which sucks cos we have to swim in it. moral of the story today : always listen to your seniors. haha joel was being so optimistic about the lightning coming when i and andrew were telling him it would never come.. and inthe end he was SO disappointed we hadto finish the 6k. hAHA.. i think im an accomplished weatherman after training for 6 years in the same pool.. or at least same area. okay im so full of crap. off to do bio tutorial..
Quote of the day by jonny
"im not doing it for the stars.. you dont have to give me stars.. just DONT give them to RUIK!! "
Sunday February 1
lalalalaa class party.. quite fun. haha. but im not allowed to go sleepover at ms lows. hmph ): ok.. get to bed. training tml morn.
when it rains it pours and opens doors and floods the floors we always thought would keep us safe and dry
"He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together" Col1:17
sighh thinking about it..i've relli got my priorities all mixed up now.. need to set them straight. where am i gg in life. truth is i dont know. hmm.
Saturday January 31
These few days have been highly eventful. to prevent myself from rattling off aimlessly i'm going to attempt to organize everyth quite neatly. haha..
okayy schhoooll..has been fun.. surprisingly. gp is interesting..esp when we played the common malapropisms.. hahaha our group was the median septums or smthg/( jo johnny me and junzi) and we were collaborating ( haha euphemism for cheating..) with the artificial.. ahems. (glen ruik sarah wenxiong) haha.. had alot of fun.. we refuseD to compete at the end tho we tied. heh. and during chinese.. 7 of us go to th usual table n play bingo.. haha chao slackers.. me jo and sawaaahh sing jay chou songs while johnny deludes himself thinking that we're serenading him.wahahah.. arghghg ha2ma3 lao shi hates us to bits. she's gonna kiLL me if i go back to chinese after 3 months.. pray hard i get a1 or a2 :/ anywayy had class lunch that day.. at the pLAYground near school.. and we were all behaving like kids.. having rubber band wars and poking each other with straws. AND playing on the slides n monkey bars. we were 'racing' on the springy horses in the play ground. haha.. i think playing at the playground is much more fun than playing truth or dare like alot of other classes like to do. haha. ok my own pov there. no offense to anyone.there was this grandmother with a little kid looking quite bewildered.. ohohoh then kangaruik threw this packet of chicken rice chilli at glen and johnnys feet on the way out// and it burst open... haha ok leave the rest to your imagination. we called for a taupok but weren;t successful haha
today was great. had a 403 class gathering.. at SENGKANG. haha. so far away.. but it was worth the journey.. everyone is as crazy as they were last year.. we were making so much noise everywhere we went.. haha then when we reached mdm yeo's house (hohoho she's pregnAnt!!) we wanted to serenade her from the void deck but she refused to come to the window. haha sang dedication in the end.. brought back such nice memories of rgs (: talked to jas (giraffe) and shihui (beng) alot todayy.. it's comforting to have such good friends in this cold cold cold world.. esp in rj where there's so much empty gossiping and senseless talk. met shad after that at holland v.. "birthday treat" hahaha.. nydc mudpies!! felt so super fat after that.. had to go training.
on to trainng.. congratulate me, i went everyday this week.. record breaking feat!! well.. okay.. fact remains that i am now much slower than last time.. and yan jiaolian cannot stop complaining about that cos he has a false idea that i was much faster at training last year jus becos i won 100fly nationals since sec1( which is no big deal btw considering my sucky times). sigh he;'s a nice person and all but i want jinjiaolian back!! i think no coach could understand me better than her. it's been 5 years actually n she relli knows when to push me n when to let me rest.. so training used to be so much better. whereas at yanjiaolian's i swim fly everyday.. and eventually my stroke screws up cos im so tired.. then he'll be very unhappy and all.. think im jus gonna work on finding my long-lost fly rhythm for now. hoho.. but saturday (today) traiing was mighty fun cos i went back to r&w for a dayy./ and we were disturbing jinjiaolian.. saying she cannot go back to china anytime soon cos we want her to coach our kids next time.. and if she's too old to walk we'll buy her a motor car to drive up and down the pool side.. hahahah.. then zoe bern lisa i and jiaolian were jus beside ourselves in laughter..
hmm.. ths week has been great (: and i go to sleep happy every night.. cool huh (: haha. ok that's all for now..
January 25
yesterdAy rocked. i love krydaeus belle geri sho ling fiona dicky sng (: haha. had no clue.. it was relli a surprise party. (:
Thursday January 22
hahaa happy cny. school is getting so tiring. no time to come online anymore. anywayy.. had class outing to body worlds that dayy.. then to seoul garden. where we attempted.. stress on the word attempted. to cook our food properly by ourselves.. and half way thru our pot of soup started to overflow and our table started panicking. i think our effort wasnt bad considering only ruik got food poisoning the next day. ken suwee glen anni and the rest of us were safe. 25 ppl showed up altog! not bad sia.hahahaha. it was fun larr.. then in the mrt all of us started cracking up. so3h looks like it's gonna be great.. except we only have one real man.. hahaha. uhhuh.. chinese new year celebs the next day was ermm.. haha. weird. weird. weird.. but after that was ok cos we went for a 'og' outing.. in actual fact there was only ade jo me xinling lilian and pravin.. who kept getting suanned. wahaha. that was quite fun too.. then went home and zzzzzzzzz for super long. and now it's cny alr! so fast this year.. not mentally prepared. no new clothes! haaha.who cares anyway. pok (grandson) came over to ppool this aft.. and i got trashed as i always do ): hahaha.. thenwe beat chan and tim at bball. gonna watch last samurai now! family outing! arghghghghg too much thinking is not good. been doing too much thinking this break.
Monday January 19
today.. depressing day. everything seems depressing. i jus wanna do sth i like.. and rj is ncie. but somehow you can't help feeling judged every minute/somehow i cant be like how i was in rgs and not feel bad about it? anyway whui is leaving for london tonight. sure will miss her. i just want to go back to those rgs days when no one whould care what others think.. when no one would change.
40000033333333333333333333.. when yu love somebody til the end of time - you're the inspiration.
haha cant be bothered to write dates anymore.. anyway today is a saturdayy.. only relaxed day in a week. jus got bak from training.. which was fUn..first time with r&w in 2 weeks.. so i was exempted from the 1500 fr plus 1000 fly plus 200 im test set wahahaha.. the past week has been mad.. get home at 9 plus after training.. and do tutorials cos 1S03H happens to be a muggAr class ehh.. heh.. but though everybody's hardworking we do have fun.. like our very first class lunch that day.. where we dared mr self proclaimed yandao to do stupid stuff.. ohh and ate ice kacang tOo! (: ahh hopefully we'll warm up.. ohh at fizziks tutorial.. we were so darn bored (me johnathan ruik) that we started playing bingo.. then it switched to ampere.. and then mole.. and when yu win you must shout "AMPERE!!", which fortunately i didnt kenna.. but the worst part was when we played "mole" and all 3 of us moled together. wahahah.. i think the fizziks teacher must think we're siao. anyway gonna do as addy did. to preserve more memories of orientation and krydaeus.. (:
JOJO! haha got to know her much better this orientation and glad i did.. jo's a genuinely nice person who's always willing to lend a hand.. and offer encouragement.. and cheer support. i lovvvvve her
ADDY gay.. hoho.. my dear gay is attracting alot of attn in rj eh? but sorry.. she's taken!! addy is definitely a damn ncie person to be around
Lilian+xinling are also great ppl.. always enthu.. and also very unassuming and fuN.
POI! is probably the most sensible one in our group.. along with baolei.. the mature ones.. whle the rest of us are plain siao.. poi's a fantastic leader too.. jarule on tue!
WEIXIN hehh.. arghghg ex classmate.. i miss her alr. always saying she looks younger than us tho she's 18 liao.. haha she's vvvvvvv sweet// girl in green (:
PrAmeet.. our dear x country runner who's relli focused when it comes to training.. and disciplined. rrrrrrrrelli nice too
HAri potter and AmrIk! hari is a joker.. never a dull moment with him around, really.. and amrik.. is the sensible one.. not saying hari is not sensible.. hehheh.. hari is the little fairyy. wahahaha
TionGKY.. hates me for calling him that.. ayy but tiongky is a chipmunk who can dance!
ShaUn.. guitar club chairman.. i bet his guitar is proness. haha his ex link card is (was) stolen!! (:
PrAvin. yeahh i agree with addy.. sth like a bro to us cos he makes sure we're ok esp when we play bball and stuff.. that is how cool! ohh yah he can dance too
vickkkkkyyyy.. aka victor.. is nuts/. but he knows when to be serious.. and makes a good leader too ehh..
John.. has funkeh oakley specs heh.. Gabriell seems quiet but i dont think he is actually.. can talk quite a bit.. and also can be v enthu.ujin.. haha jet. nice guy too.. overall everyone rocks larr.. i hate using the word rocks but it's true.. more than true.. i love my og.. and i miss orientation!
haha zhengg.. the one with pink specs and earrings.. heh zheng is funny.. corny.. full of crap.. and has a twin to boot.
sophhhhh.. is cool and can sing likejay chou.. can be quiet sometimes but overall he's a cool guy.. encouraging too.
francis is little but she's powerfuL ehh.. and mighty responsible.. good things come in small packages. i'm sure ade would agree on that (:
notforgetting giddy christelle and kokwei our mommy and daddys.. who were always there for us.. hahahaa. had a fantastic time..
now it's time to tone down.. dont play so much.. dont crap so much.. dont play ampere and mole druing tutorial.. must be guai. must. hahaaha..
arghh, post orientation depression. yeah.. lectures today.. stupid.. bio lecture was dumb.. chem was ok.. the teachers forever trying to keep us awake with their lame jokes// but it was not bad.. (: anywayyy i ffinished my math hw with alot of help and after borrowing assignments here and there..played bball after sch again.. jo sarah me and a few others. i think 14 ppl or sth. full court.. my fitness relli sucks. was so tired after awhile.. then i wanted to go home.. and then go training.. then i realized. i have no where to train.. on monday. bleh. sighh.. depressing thot.. now i cant even go morning training, nor sunday training.. nor anything.. i miss jiaolian.bern.zoe.lisas big mouth :D EVEN THE LITTLE KIDS. zacho nick joel.. blehhss.arghgh what it wronf withme.. i should jus get on and join a new cca. rugby perhaps? no.. dad will kiLL me. goodnite.
Thursday January 8
can't believe i fell asleep at my FIRST lecture.. this does not augur well for the future.. anyway orientation is ending.. blehh.. today we got introed to classes.. sigh i hope ppl will warm up like krydaeus did.. it's quite saD. but the games for faculty were quite fun. girl power. arghghgh i think i should stop being so crazy already. time to slow down and start mugging.. cant believe we got two assignments alr! short entry.. good nite.
Wednesday January 7
today was a super psycho day.. the raffles amazing race.. hahah and our group seriously went out of our minds!! we went to singapore river.. bugis water "sprayer" "fountain", holland v, heeren, and the new rj campus..which was awesome.. tho it looks like it isnt gonna be ready. hmphh.. but we were asking the workers there and they said it would surely be done.. well.. hope so (: the best stop was the singapore river stop mann.. we took the nel and sat down by the river.. and the number of minutes we took to get there was the number of tourists we had to wave to and get waves back from.. in the end there were just too few tourists so we ended up doing the rain dance.. at the side of the signgapore river.. totally insane.
in the trains all of us were playing really dumb games like BANGBANGBANG who's dead.. white horse black horse.. aunt polly died last nite did she die.. open close open close close..yellOw magik.. etc. kept tricking each other.. shiokness.. talked so much i have a sore throat now.. sigh orientation is over, officially. i'll miss me og loads.. coming to like them alot. today ras came to visit.. hope she comes to rj!! anyway as she said.. raffles is the only place where we feel at home.. bern i and curly all think so too.. yayy.. hope i made the right choice then (: thank God (: well lectures tommorrw., bio mathh.. bleh sure sleep zzzz.. anywayy had dinner at void deck with og againnn.. staring competition.. me and mingzheng tied. hehh..somehow when i stone.. everything jus disappears.. and i cant hear the voices anymore..
anywayy then a few of us went home together n they walked me in cos it was dark. so super nice of them.. faction orientation tommorrow.. goOdnite (; rg orientation concert on sat.. too bad i cant make it ):
Tuesday January 6
hahaha today was siao.. both my toes are black now and my legs are aching~ morning was activities in sch.. did all sorts of rubbish stuff,.. the race for monkey ransome.. wahaha the acting is so pro. esp those monkeys with the mat accent. ahh then afte that went to practice dance.. first we went to wisma roof top.. super nice place.. so deserted so no one to malu ourselves in front of. then kenna chased away.. went to civic plaza at taka.. in front of the fountain. we danced like 2 hours there.. n all the old ladies were staring.. tourists taking photos.. chao embarrassing.. but in the end we got into the mood and everyone was really enthu.. finAlly can do flying jonathan.. congulations to me! (: and five point.. arghghghgghgh the guys in my group can dance ten times better than us.. esp melvin n pravin.. i think the rest of us should jus hide in their shadow.. ade and i and jo and xiaoyun and weixin jus attempt to follow them.anyway went out for dinner w jo.. got home to celebrate dad's bdayy (:amazing race tmrw~
Monday January 5
haha second day of orientation.. more and more games..(levanOx wOn!and we were like screaming like insane people).. found out i like handball.. and the rolling game was absolutely failuric.. arghghgh i hated the ddr station.. had to go up and malu myself dancing wahahaha.. besides that we won all the others.. soph came up with a new cheer too which is betta than the kick butt one.. hehh. anytime. learnt the dance (which our group so totally cannot get hAha).. oh yah rain dance too.. it was so weird doing it again.. third time learning it(: brings back nce memories of practising on hotel corridors while the other guests express their distaste.. ahhh.. orientation is fun.. lessons start on thur though. im in so3H with slow, jo, gracet etc.. hahaha..goodstuff! apparently our class only has like 5 guys wahahaha.. poor things. jus got back from dinner with half of the og.. today most ppl were too tired to go.. haha.. anywayy.. zzz now.. another long day tmr.. bleH.
Sunday January 4 2004
jus finished og 'outing'.. not relli outing.. around 20 of us..incl gideon and christelle.. we jus hung around and ate lots..play pool bridge heart attack dai dee indian poker.. watched bimbo shows like coyote ugly and legally blonde and basically talked crap.. but i kenna scolded from parents after that.. blehhhh. nvm..had fun lahh.. now must go do the ja lo design.i suck at art man.. ):
nickels and dimes, yours and mine
did you cash in all your dreams
Saturday, January 3, 2004
hmm first day of orientation yesterday.. quite fun (: nice people nice og.. quiet at first though. the storyline is cool.. me and ade could jus imagine eunice going "arrrrr".. miss 403 so much! hehh was sO nice to see all my classmates after 2 months. plus ex classmates from sc pri! hannnah my partner in crime + jiawen (also another partner in crime) in 6 sy. overall it was fun.. i think we're in levanox faction of magiK. anyway today i talked to uncle siong for awhile.. i do understand why i can't train at acjc anymore.. it's more about the acceptance of that now, which im sure i'll come to terms with. things i learnt today :
1never wear white goggles on a sunny day arghghghgh ouch ouch ouch during training
2george lucas is a bad director who comes up with cheesy lines like "i like you because you're smooth. smoother than sand"
till we meet again..
shotdown said you never had the chance took a ride on a suicide romance *
Thursday January 1
happy new yr to everyone i guess (: g o o d b y e officially to my sec school life.. which, i think, was the best part of my life to this date. all the wonderfulleSt friends in 403/richardson housecomm/pb/swimming(apsc ppl), all the crazy stuff we did in school, staying back until relli late, the countless hours we spent together during camps and planning for orientation + all the functions (in those painful pumps),
all the swimming memories.. sea age groups, asian schs and asean schs, sanyas.. the great times.. the nonsense dances, the baddd singing, the room mates, the friends that we made at overseas meets, jiaolian, passing piano exams despite failing sight readng desperately, class partiiieess, kunmingsss etcetc the list goes on...
thank God for everything
it's time to start anew.. which is a scary thought. having to forge new friendships and maintain the old ones, find a new cca, heavier workload, pressure cooker school.. i dont know why i seem to have the feeling tht i need to prove myself again..and tht is the only reason why i cannot bring myself to stop swimming tho i dont like it... i somehow waNt to be like last time.want to represent singapore. want to go with the team.. but i cAn't anymore, and that's the problem.. it's no longer in my control. let it go. leave it all behind. move on.
well just as i was thinking about all that today, i thot.. of the song we ever so frequently sing in church, but i nv relli listened carefully to the lyrics. because He lives/i can face tmrw/because he lives/all fear is gone/because i know/i know He holds the future/and life is worth the living/just because/He lives
okay.. so why should i worry right? it's all in God's hands. there is no need to prove myself.. and now it's time to convince my other personality.. (:
resolutions? i have none except that i want to walk with God more closely.. cos failing to do that is the root of all my problems. the rest i seldom keep to, so instead, i have hopes (:
1) get a nice class for jc (:
2) do well enough for j1
3) find a nice cca, or if all else fails, swim again and do reasonably well for n.a.g/ nationals/etc , have the discipline to work at it, or find the passion for it again
4) learn proper guitar skills
5) get back to piano and try to play for church one day.
6) be a good friend and find good friends (:
bleh can't think of much more.. school tmr. arghghghgh.
btw does anybody remember who Juthamas from thailand is? tell me asap... think he's a backstroker or freestylist.. sent my bro and i a christmas card and i cant even rmb which one he is :/ all the thai names seem rather similar.. almost all have pon at the end.. rmb pichaporn, nattapon, ratapong/ ? haha.
Wednesday December 31st
who else is in krydaeus ?? hahah at least i have adeline my darling gayyyyy (: jumps fOr joy.. her expression.. (: dont know why most ppl cant wait for friday. i cAn wait for friday.. and i dOnt want it to come so quickly. nightmAre. anywayy yesterday was my last training session with jinjiaolian..so, i decided to commemorate it by not training! (: we were allowed to plaY frisbee - hehh our team won cos the wind was on our side (taoli, bryan,ming, amandaleejueer and me).then after that when everybody xia shui me and zoe stayed on deck to talk rubbish with jiaolian.. as usual she was saying how all girls muSt get married and must find ppl with zhe2ren4gan3 and that singapore doesnt have hao kan de nan hai..i think we laughed until we kenna cramp.. but it was good. i cant imagine swimming under any other coach.. it's been 5 years since jiaolian started coaching me and she's the one who started me on fly anyway. saw me thru around.. 4 good years and 1 bad one. heh.arghghghghghghg so saddd ): okay forget the subject.. who's gonna be training anyway?!? todayy i left the house at 8 to go running with yilin.. haaha ran all the way to NIE and then walked around there and around and around. met up with melvin. yeahh sniper lieW our capt at asian schools! cos he was there running with the navy. wonder where all the seniors like jeri adrian jame jingyi went to after jc.. nv see them around ): still rmb how they painfully taught us the dance.. and it turned out quite good. hehh. windscreenwipers/clown/pullstrings/combhair.. when it became our turn to be seniors at penang we were super grateful that the rest were so much better than we were last time. i miss my roomiessss at 1454..meljingjacq!!!! hahah anyway on the way back home i dropped by ling's house.. and we ended up gg to botanical gardens to walk around the place. didnt know it's so near our area.. 4 bus stops away onlehh. anywayy tired now tmr must take big big extended family photo..cos alex nd lishan are back. arhghgh sure very confusing.. so many of us.. 22 i think.. goodnite (at 2.30pm)
Memoirs of Kunming. read onleh if youre bored.. very bored (: or if youre an (ex) apscian. heh.. since i spent around 4 months of my life in that place during the nov/dec hols i shall attempt to recollect the memories. (:
altogether had 5 room mates.. unice smellie tiffAny zOe and ah bern. woahh that's almost all the ex r&w girls. that's how we got very close in the first place but now hardly anyone is around ): since the hard training coupled by the terrible test sets is an understatement.. i shall write about the fun stuff instead.. ive come to realize that once you come back from kunming, all you rmb is the good stuff anyway. okay start with the one i enjoyed most... kunming 2001. let's see.. there was me/chels/tiff/bern/lisa/unice/mel/tzen/christel/beckkkyy ander/mark/fergus/leslie/bryan/ryan/daniel/owen/jed/lulu. anyway what was relli nice was when we moved up into the mountains to train in the hot spring place! there was one dorm.. upstairs for girls and downstairs for guys..think there was the 7 dwarves room where the girls all squashed our beds together and slept in one row cos it got scary at night. outside the room there were persimmon trees which always had those giant fruits hanging down and les would carry us on his shoulders to pluck them. unfortunately they were quite sour..
oh yah the pool had live prawns in it! we actually caught them.. very small ones larh..lol.quite amusing though.. swimming with prawns. adn the water was hot. which was nice cos it's always winter when we go kunming. plus we had to walk in the collld to the ppool across those giant drains and rivers.. the place was quite old and everything but it was a great experience.. cos the stars were rellirelli (*100000)pretty too. much better than OBS stars. i suppose it's cos we were on top of the mountain.. so i think it was lisa's idea to drag our blankets out at night and look at the stars, much to uncle siong's displeasure cos it was freeziNg cold/ the first time she did it we thought she was a corpse!!! hehh. anyway outside were the 3 steep steep slopes.. steeper than any slope in singapore i think. we had to run up and down them every morning at around 645. the dining place was below those slopes and by the time it was after dinner all of us would be sO tired from trainng tht we could hardly climb it. so we had the plan.. where the bigger guys (muck,fer n les) would stand at the sides and the girls in the middle. then the whole row of us would put our arms around each others shoulders and start running up.. so basically the ppl at the side would help push us up.. haha.not a bad idea.
there was also the giant spider incident.. the giant spider in MY room .tiff and i started panicking. n when all the girls rushed to our room they also started panicking and we almost emptied the whole dorm haaha. so the last resort was to call the guys to kill it. and they gallantly answered our call for help (all dashing up the stairs) until they saw the spider.. and Mark promptly took off down the stairs.. haha the hero in the end was Fer cos he used the toilet stick to crush it..
and who can ever forget the spastic disco we had? the absolutely pro matchmaking agency wahahahaha switch here switch there
and the hot spring with the lousy walls so we could throw stuff over eg owen's slippers and the plastic dustbin until the china people got so mad so mad so so so mad at us. hehh.
the food sucked.. one day we even found a dog paw in the dish.. how gross.. but there was always the saving grace.. which is mantou!! time to stuff your faces when it comes (:
haha and when we took a trek up to the villages higher in the mountains.. got to see all the harvested winter melons and pumpkins etc. an jed tried to do the matrix stunt and ended up rolling down the mountain aye wahaha.
woah this must be getting boring.. think i'll go play isketch to ease my boredom now (:
Monday December 29
zzz. tireD!~ did gym with today..ah this is prob the last gym session i'l ever do considering acjc is kicking me out of the place cos i decided to go rj.i shall reserve my comments on that to myself for fear of insulting anyone. haha my partner was the (unfortunate) ally, but fortunate for me cos he supported all the bars (esp the benchpress one) cos they keep wobbling..or i would be crushed by now. besides that it was ok except that both of us are big fat liars who try to skive doing dips.. liarliar.. blanked out during the swimming part agAin. jiaolian was like "zhiyue!! zhe me le?? gan ma???" -blank stare- thought of stopping somewhere during the 12* 200 mainset. but dunno.it's like machinery. keep going. and going. fly was terrible.. felt like a drowning.. moth?ohyah watched lotr the two towers complete version.. was around 4 or 5 hours.. nicenicenice. there was a part when gimli had his axe stuck in the orc's nervous system n kept making it twitch so that legolas thot it wasnt dead. and when merry and pippin were drinking some stuff from the ents trying to outgrow each other. somehow i find myself happier nowadays when i'm alone. so unlike last time.on the pathway to becoming a recluse.
Sunday December 28
haha another strange day.. slept for 7 hours in the afternoon (12 - 4) and (430-730) and im still sleepy now! anyway yday ran 6-7 km with lisa.. all the way to acsi where they were having training ( i purposely pon to skip 400 test set cos i prob cant even swim 100 fast now so actually it was a pretty bad idea to run there) ohyah watched rotk again.. now im even more convinced that legolas is a redundant character..aragorn does all the serious business and he jus agrees. as yilin pointed out, he relli didnt have to say "a diversion!" ohh. and he looks like a girl. a very pretty one i must say (: belle told me that the whole nz army was recruited for the fighting scenes. the goodlooking ones become elves, ok ones become soldiers and ugly ones become orcs. can you imagine the director scrutinizing you and like passing judgement.. orc? i dont think anybody deserves to be an orc.haha. ohyahohyah yilin and xiuf came over to play pool which was a flop on my part.. cos i either shoot the white ball in or shoot nothng in at all.. so failuric. kenna trashed.. in the end we played www.isketch.net a super waste time but fun game.. sth like pictionary.. 3 of us sitting there guessing the word. nvm this holiday is meant for wasting time, that's the whole purpose of my blog anyway (:
home is behind/the world is ahead/and there are many paths to tread... all shall fade
Saturday December 27
there's oceans in between us, but that's not very far
been feeling rather strange lately. keep drifting away halfway thru doing stuff.. like. totally stoning and i dont realize it! it's the feeling that yr head is gonna explode.. or maybe implode. and yu feel like screaming.. yes.. very strange. fortunately ive snapped out of it.. and uncle zhiyong and i have concluded that im a closet schizO. double personality.. cos when im at training, i constantly look like i dont wanna be theRe, like im forced into it. but nobody forces me, i force myself. so, in conclusion i have one lazy bum personality(the reaL karen) which is constantly being tortured by the dominant personality, the slave driver you-must-study you-must-trainhard you-must-go-fast you-cannot-slack personality.. which we decided to name smeagol. without it, i would have quit going training long time ago, considering how much i hate it. hahaha anyway enough rubbish.. went to Whui's house last night with kandayy jias py and ht.. whui's mom is a super goOd cook! must learn from her after jc aye. off to lunch with yilin nOwwww..
Thursday December 25
happy christmas everyOne (: haha had a great christmas eve + christmas..but, unfortunately, again, the highlight was eating. blehh.. feeling so full now! ate sushi with dot, then some more at the the largE extended family gathering (where all of us watched italian jOb.. good show.. actually i think crooks are the smart ones.esp that napster guy who broke into the traffic control system(: you will never shut down the REAL NAPSTERRRR ) anywayys after midnight mass went to eat macs at 3 am!!!!and the place was sO packed still! haha when i went to church this morning.. thot i wasnt involved in the christmas musicaL .. but the moment i stepped in.. got pulled to the room and kenna dressed up as a wise man!~ arghghgh.. had to go on stage and pretend to read scroLLs!? so weird.. didnt practice at all. but nvm.. it was ok.. the food at geri's more than madeup for it.strawberry cheesecake logcake? and all the other stuffs. belle fionnaa geri and i (sandy and pekyi were there toO) jus sat at the table for like.. 2 hours. eating. trying to pour the fake wine into the stack of glasses.. like at weddings. it somehow reminded us of orientation skit eh.. the sec4 prefects skit.when geri was the prince looking for someone to marrY.. and i was the kinG (wahahaha.. the moronic/cheekopek kinggg) dicky was the princess,belle was sleeping beauty and ling was my wife!?! haha.. that was a great effort by our batch.. but i think the sec1s had more fun laughing at us(esp dicky in her skiRT) than anythinG.. after that we played shithead and bridge.. while singing 'jinger bers'. yes.. the ahbeng way.. version 2.0 taught by ling.. with sound effects and all..extremely rubbishy.. but it's fun to act stupid. be stupid..whatever. hehh. and come up with mOre stupid jokes. what did jack say to jill when they climbed up the hill and found no water? noelle noelle noelle noelle (yeah that christmas song) and we know it's a badjoke. anyway merry christmas again..i have to sleep the coffee is nOt working.. 4 hours last night was barely enough.
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
hahahhaa.. this reminds me of sec2 lit w louisa leeee.. great poem huh. my latest obsession - robert frost. so perhaps lit wasn't completely wasted on me?
'the grass will wither and the flowers fall but the word of the Lord endures forever'
The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
robert frost
the nice parts of nOvember rain..
'Cause nothing lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
...And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothing lasts forever
Even cold November rain
think gnr is a goOd band. hopefully not satanic or anyth.. jus heard this on the radiO.. somehow reminds me of Kunming??! so weird. actually everything about november and december reminds me of kunming..spent most of them there. can;t believe i actually think of kunming. heh.
Tuesday December 23
todaaayy is a colllllld collllddd dayy. so cold that none of us bathed after training.. which is disgusting considering how much gross stuff there is in the pool. fortunately skin is impermeable..and on cold days, you get relli relli hungry and start to think of fOod. marvellous foOd.. that sucks especially when there's half the program left to go and food is far away hehh.. zoe and i were torturing ourselves thinking of cookie monster mudpies from nydc (: jiaolian seems to have a theory for that.. when you're cold.. you use more energy producing heat, and hence yu get hungry/!?!?! then she goes "jiu shi wei shen me mei yen ta men dao mei guo qu dou bian fei le!" jiaolian has a theory for everything.. sure will miss it next year~ sighhs. anyway training was rather bad! cos we were all aching like crazyy from yesterday's gym.. bleehhs. the silly horizontal bar dips thingie n chinups(Yuck with a capital Y)plus today ming jUst had to suggest (for calisthenics) that we do dynamic alternate box holds!? simply excruciating. haha.. the best part was still the RuN.. "all in preparation for next week's biathlonnnn" biathlon? huh? uncle zhiyong's excuse. well bern meiyen zoe and i ran together.. exceedingly slowly. think andrew overtook us after 2 rounds and ally overtook us within 3 rounds..we were practically crawling along! and those 2 were pushing christel at me and shouting "watch out! your'e gonna fly across the field if she hits you!!" ohyah, joscelin came to train with us for awhile today. she's someone i admire quite a bit. for her grit and resilience etc.and the fact that she can train so hard and not get sick of it.wonder when the next jos will come about in singapore.. perhaps soon, with the establishment of the sports school?
seem to have a bad case of insomnia.. couldn't sleep till 4 last night, or you could say this morning.. but that's partially due to my stupidity.. drinking so much coffee. hmphh. tomorrow is the day of doom.. the apocalypse.. the terrorrrrr.. the christmas swimmmmmmmmm...
btw jus heard some great news (: eunice (gp/longkang/lame etc) received Christ!!!! (: :) (: :)
Monday Dec 22
HAPPY BIRTHDAYY ZOE flyqueennnnn (: welcomE back to singaporrre!!
haha thanks and more thanks to lisaa and jueer and jonah for helping me.. the html-loser.. hehh (: woke up at 1230 todayy!!.. and sorta packed all my notes so that my bro can use them next yearr.. that was long overdue.. more than 1 months since Os ended alr! can actually see how distracted we were in class this year by looking at the worksheetS.. have whui's chan's shermaine's anna's etc scribblign and drawingsss on my notes.. and diary.. hehh.. and also my writing which eversooften starts to slant and gets uglier and uglier.. that's shows how frequently i fall asleep in class (: think i'm the record holder (facing competition from mel and hanxi though) for clocking the least number of waking hours in school (: ahhhh.. i miss you guys in 4/3 alreadyyy.. hehh.. hope we get the swensens treat from monicamee yeahh? at least there're like 15 of us gg rj together..thetwins+whui+chan+me+sheR!+mel+shihuiiii+mygiraffe+adddddygay+anna(wiffffe)+saraaah(granndpaa) etcetccc.. my memory fails me alr.we'll show ms tan-yeo we still can cross drains and buy noodles okayy??? heh/yeahh whuiiii hope we're in the same class toooo!~ (: looks like it's gonna be a busy christmas.. should be going to geri's midnight mass on the 24th.. then belle and her are coming to mine the next daY!! then back to geri's house for chrismassy food (: hehh.. turkeyyy + log cake! time to get fattt (: but of course.. not to forget the truE meaning of christmas.. the sec3 class reminded us on sunday (: christmas isn't christmas till it happens in your heart
somewhere deep inside yu
is where christmas relli starts
so give yur heart to Jesus you'll discover when yu do
that is christmas relli christmas.. for youuuu (:
"I will never leave you nor forsake you" Hebrews13:5
btw had a long chat with elise ( m'sian swimmer) todayy.. did quite alot of catching up.. was nice (:
nice sOng by matchbox20 (: hehh. off to 'training' noW..
((Well, some things in this world you just can't change
Some things you can't see until it gets too late
Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe You'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home))
Sunday, December 21
by the way today was church play.. haha it was.. quite.. fun i guess. had a good laugh at ourselves. next time we need more practice huh?
since i'm still in a rambling mood.. (excess energy) i'll talk about the kohsamui trip.. which was great. except that it was. the monsoon. season.. arrgrgrhrhrhgrrghrgrhr.. rainnyraiinnyy.. choppy seAs.. jus floating around in it can make you sick! hehh. then my family + charis + hans decided to go on a kayaking trip in the open seas?! looking back.. it was a rather crazy idea. i dunno how high the waves were actually but i kept thinking that we were gonna capsize. was actually screaming "we're gonna diE!!" at bryan too.. but he seemed rather calm. fortunately, or we would have toppled the boat.. went cave exploring.. but due to the highest tide level of the year.. all we explored was a HOLE. a small dangerous little hole with sharp edges.. hehh. found out that bryan hans and i are actually extremely sadistic people.. who enjoy torturing ourselves and getting slammed by the big waves at the beach.anyway.. the rest of the trip was spent walking up and down chaweng.. a 4km stretch of shops.. fake shops.. my paradise.. (for cheapskate people). and of course, EATING. we ate excessively.. and hans was super shocked at the amount and speed my family eats..so we gave him "expanding your stomach" courses.. and it worked.. we should relli charge.. by the end of the trip.. he ate faster than me!! amazing! oh and the brazilian restaurant is so funky.. can eat non stop.. and they keep bringing the food.. which was great for us cos we made the restuarant lose moneyyyyss (: esp bryan cos he didnt stop eating.. even when all of us were like half-dead already/ ahh ohyah i roomed with charis.. and then kor moved in after 2 days. which was quite fun atually.. except that both of us are boring ppl who onleh like to watch animal planet. (yes.. that's sO sadd ) :) anyway better be off noW.. shall ponder whether or not to go for training tmr morn.. thanks to amandaleeee for helping me with this blog stuff(:
Saturday, December 20
ahhh (: bored stil so i shall write more on the past few weekss.. i love christmas seasOn cos everybody comes back to singapore!! haah for example.. air pork! (okay.. no insult to yu meiyen.glad you're backfrom US n sea games.. lucky for us it was raining hard that day.. until like 545? so we like caught up for 1 hour or sth), louie (sorry dude, i can't rmb how to spell your name..was pri 5 the last time we trained together), taoli(woaahhh 27 for 50 fly n 1.01 for 100 fly.. at 13 years old she's the top 4 in china??!?) so.. as you may have guessed, training (or wahtever training i go to) has been more eventful..it's great to have more people to talk rubbish with (esp since the exodus of so many of our old r&w ppl). it's officially bern meiyen's and my duty to disturb each other to our wits' end.. like drawing on meiyen's leg at gym(hehhehhh),bern stealing my hongkong cap and wearing it under he adidas cap.. arghh.. that called for an uprising! , making fun of our faTs.. etc (:.. i should say I do more talking then swimming nowadays, which is good.. preparation for next year's stopping swimming. anyway enough about swimming.. suling (yes my gf (: ) came back too.. from aussie! i think 2 weeks ago or sth.. she came over.. and saw all the class pics/prom pics/ class videos. aussie sounds really really fun.. would be nice to go away someday (: then i walked her home to see HeR aussie photos.. good stuff.. but the highlight was the chocs.. lindt dark chocs.. hehh.. im a pigggg (: it's just great to see old friends again.
larlarlarrrr finnalllyyy (: hehh after 5 tries i found a good place to bl0g. this will be my time wasting mechanism from now on.. until school reopens. that is. in 2 weeks time (arghghghghghghghghgh)/ i cant imagine getting out of bed early.. esp since this hols has been a sleep.. eat..go out and pon training hol (: pity.. if this had been a year ago, or 2 years ago, or 3 years ago.. i wouldnt have minded going back to school at all.. cos that would mean NO MORNING TRAINING haha. christmas swim on tuesday.. 100 * 100 and sprint the last 20~! ahem.. considering not going for it this year. heh/. who's with me? okok.. better not instigate people to commit such crimes.. anyway went to watch lotr todayy.. woahh it was cool (: except that i don't like loud noises. and there was lots of it! and the fighting relli made the two towers battle at helms deep look quite amateur. the green ghostss.. trolls/. and the oliphaunts!! and of course there was aragorn (: my fave.. belle says both of us look like frodO and sam?! haha. ahwell.. fortunately there was ben or i would've been blur thru out the show.(all my friends can testify to me poor movie-watching skills).. the people sitting behind the whole row of us were getting rather pissed cos we were talkin so much and eating so loudly? anyway we met jacq/tania/jeff/bern/ outside. chailin too! rmb her from asean schools..and torwai.. nv seen him off tv before. what an air headed entry :P
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